Wounds

I want to ask a favor of all of you out there....
Please think about how others, mainly family, will feel about what you post to Jimmy's FB page. I allowed it to remain so that others could use it as a healing tool. Please just take time to think about how you would feel being on this side of his passing. I know that many people have been affected by Jimmy's passing, but none to the magnitude of Father, Mother, Sister, Brother, etc. I would never claim to miss Rick more than his Daughter, Sister, Brothers... that would be just silly of me. They have spent a lifetime with him, as we have with Jimmy. I would hurt these people tremendously having claimed such things. But, I do stay in touch with all of the said above, most of whom I see weekly- it helps to keep Rick's memory alive in a positive and friendly manner so that we may continue helping one another heal.
This is what I desire for Jimmy's memory- he would not want people to be ripped apart, or made to feel badly. So, again, please use his site for healing and sharing, not a contest to see who misses him more or who has the best memories, because EACH memory will be the best one when reflected in the eyes of whom it was made with.
Just remember how much Jimmy "loved" drama, and maybe that will help in deciding what to post and what to share privately with whomever said memory involved.
Please allow his family who remains on FB the privilege to see Jimmy's memory honored in a positive and friendly light.
Wounds are still fresh for everyone- let us allow them the proper healing.
Thank you for understanding.

Last night I dreamt of all of the Christmases with Jimmy and all of the gifts that MOST moms wouldn't give their kids. Like funny (sometimes daring) T-Shirts. He LOVED those shirts- when he wore them and people would comment on them, he would say- "Yea, my mom got me this". So, when I would meet people now and again- I would hear- "so, you are the one that got him these shirts?" I never knew that a T-shirt would spark such interest... and now such memories!!

Memory....

Last night I was on my way home from work (had a late meeting) and I was singing along with the radio. A memory came flooding back to me that made me smile. When the boys were young, we lived in the mountains, just the three of us. Anytime we would be in the car (or even at home) I would have music playing. When I would sing with the music, they would just stop what they were doing and stare at me - as if they were mesmerized. As they got older, they would tell me that I sang so good. Ha.... I loved that of course. I was so happy that they were tone deaf- or just didn't know any better... their mommy was a music star!!
So when I thought of this last night- the feelings that I had when they were young came flowing right back through me. :)

Well, I have been checking to see if someone had posted Jimmy's whereabouts in his travels. I KNOW that he is so proud of us all and what we are doing in his name. He would have been thinking up soooo many different things to do with his buddies. I can only imagine the lengths he would have gone. Hell, he would probably figured out a way to get someone to the moon. Ha Well, today is yet another family get together without my boy. One knows how important family is but you don't FEEL it until you lose that family. I have always been a HUGE FAMILY PERSON.... I try to continue this, though sometimes I feel I am not as 'into' it as before. I really don't know how to explain it- it's just different.
Thank you to everyone that still comes to the site and the words of encouragement are appreciated. I love you all too. Carla (Lanfill's girlfriend) ... (aka, Brendan) < that was for you Carla...sent me a pic that reminded her of Jimmy during recent travels. I thought it was so very sweet for them to think of me and email me the pic. I will share.
Again, thank you all for being part of our lives. Jimmy is always watching- do it right!!

Another family get together today without Jimmy. :(