July 4th

Jimmy always loved this day- he was always going to different states to purchase some kick ass fireworks to share with his family. The bigger the better he always thought. He got some pretty GREAT stuff!!
 Jimmy, we all miss you so tremendously - it hurts very much... I can't really explain how I feel most times.... I am in a daze, a crazy vortex of untruthfulness, somewhere a parent never wanted to be. I know that you are all around, but dammit, I get very selfish and just want to see you, talk to you, hear your smart ass comments one more time. I sometimes find myself praying for the day that I will see you again to come soon; I know that a parent and grandparent that has others to love and hold should not be thinking this way- but it can't be helped sometimes. I do apologize for the thoughts to the rest of my family.
We love you James- Dad misses you very much too. We are leaning on one another - I know you see this and it helps. Damion talks about you a lot. Zen does too--- we  keep you alive in our every day discussions  so that they will be able to know you! <3
So many words left to say---- can't wait to see you again....

Grey Fox,
I do remember  - - - and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your generosity with the donation.
Thank you for your kind words of Jimmy... He sure was ONE OF A KIND and at such a young age to have touched so many, makes me fill with pride. I know that he fills a bigger purpose now- but that doesn't mean that it still doesn't suck... right?
He will NEVER be forgotten and that has been proven by soooo many people and their loving words for my son.
Thank you again for keeping Uncle J-Bird alive in your thoughts!!
Marie ~ Mother of one of the best beings ever!!

I am glad I kept all of the prior Mother's Day cards..... Thank you Jimmy for many happy years as your mother

We are holding our 2nd annual JFF bake sale on Saturday, April 19th- 2 years to the day we lost a very important piece of our family. This year we have added a yard sale/flea market- Please keep us in mind when you are doing your spring cleaning. ALL donations accepted; We will take anything that will sell. The benefactor of this sale has not yet been adopted, BUT be assured that we will find the person who would benefit the most from the donation.

 Garden Spot High School

 New Holland, Pa

 Saturday, April 19th, 2014

 7am - 2pm

LOTS of Easter goodies to be added to your feast. We will have Peanut Butter and Coconut Eggs covered in chocolate.

We will even have a craft section this year!!

Adding a visit from the easter Bunny too!!!!! 

Jimmy Faus Foundation Benefit set for April 19th, 2014 7am-2pm at GSHS

We are holding our 2nd annual JFF bake sale on Saturday, April 19th- 2 years to the day we lost a very important piece of our family. This year we have added a yard sale/flea market- Please keep us in mind when you are doing your spring cleaning. ALL donations accepted; We will take anything that will sell. The benefactor of this sale has not yet been adopted, BUT be assured that we will find the person who would benefit the most from the donation.

 Garden Spot High School

 New Holland, Pa

 Saturday, April 19th, 2014

 7am - 2pm

LOTS of Easter goodies to be added to your feast. We will have Peanut Butter and Coconut Eggs covered in chocolate. We will also be selling already dyed and decorated Easter Eggs; ready for the Easter Bunny to hide!!               

I hope to see MANY MANY PEOPLE there-
Through us Jimmy's hands are not yet still!!!!

Tree

I sure wish that Jimmy was here today to go get the Christmas tree.... :(

Cheryl,
Thank you for your kind words and healing thoughts. I just can't help myself from that kind of thinking from time to time. What helps me tremendously is knowing that I will embrace him again and that he is watching over us. So many 'events' happen that proves to me that he is present- I cherish all of them.

I hope that everyone can have a wonderful and blessed Christmas season.

Today

2 years ago today, from his hospital room, Jimmy devised a plan to get his family together for one last birthday surprise for me. I will never forget the feeling of him wanting to get out of the room (little did I know the reasoning); I was just so elated that he wanted to walk to the cafeteria. We sat down there for a little while (him on his pillow because he was so frail) and me right beside him- I had enough cushion, probably for both if us- I didn't need a pillow.
When he knew that his family was up in his rom awaiting our arrival, he said that he was ready to go back and we began our trek up to the 8th floor. when we arrived on the floor- he made me walk ahead of him because he 'didn't like people looking at him'. Well, of course I will run interference- I will kick their asses o=if they even THINK about eyeballing my boy!! We get to the room and he makes sure that I am there to open the door first..... "SUUUURRRRPRRRIIIISSSE!!!!!!!" they all scream.... "HOLY SHIT- are you guys trying to kill me?!?!" I asked. I will NEVER forget our last 'mom's' birthday together. These memories will always be cherished.

Though, I sometimes can't believe that this all ever happened- did I really have a son that passed . . . . yes, and it was just yesterday. . .  or was it so many years ago that I can't remember. The feelings that one goes through in their life when death touches it is crazy. I am so afraid that one day I will TOTALLY crack and go off of the deep end to never return. I truly fear this.
The past few days I have been contemplating the meaning of life- what are we all doing here? There has to be a higher purpose than getting up  in the morning, going to work, working all day, and then coming home to rest to do it all over again. I try to keep Jimmy alive in daily events. We talk openly about him and what he has done- and through us, what he will continue to do.

Today on my day off, I walk slowly through my empty silent house and have a very sad feeling as I look at his pictures.... I miss you so very damn much James Duane. . . . . . . . . . . . .

Thank you to EVERYONE that was involved in/with this AWESOME event