Monday, August 27, 2012

Last night I had a dream that I went straight from work to a party. During that party I remembered that "Shit, I haven't seen Jimmy yet today", so this morning when I woke up I KNEW that I HAD to go see him today before work. What a shitty feeling when I gathered myself and remembered the real world. Dreams..... :(

Wednesday, August 22, 2012



These are pictures of Landfill -some call him Brendon :) - he and his girlfriend, Carla,  ran some races and did them in the name of Jimmy. The one race was a 200 mile relay across Massachusetts.... WOW. I am constantly amazed at just how much and how many people Jimmy has touched at such a young age. I am still so proud of him! Thank you for sharing the pics Carla-

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Tonight is my monthly dinner with Clare, A.K.A. Jeff's Mom. I have been really blessed to have such a GREAT circle of friends around me.... from my kids to Rick's friends and family to Jimmy's friends to my work place. I am sure that things would have been very different had I not had the support, because even with the support system, there were lots of times I didn't want to be here. So, I know I am saying it for my kids as well as myself- "Thank You"

Sunday, August 19, 2012

Four months today.....so sad!!
I wanted to share a fun picture....
This is Jimmy's Uncle Duane & Aunt Judy.... God, my family rocks! LOL

Friday, August 10, 2012

I sure hope to see a post on here to see where he ended up. That is so cool. I loved the rainbow. He loved it when the rainbows were double. I know he is watching and saying "Wow, what a great bunch of people are surrounding my Maw"!! I don't blame you for waiting the extra day, Clare. I would've been pretty shy about it too with lots of people around. I will try to get the video that you shot on here the next few days. AND Thank You once again- that was EXACTLY what he would have done for others. Jimmy would be trying to come up with as many places and crazy ways of taking his friends places as he could- I could just hear him plotting now!!
I miss him so damn much.....

Monday, August 6, 2012

Well, today is the day of the trip down the falls. Jeff wanted to put a paper inside explaining the story...- he came to my work on Saturday when he was finished with the barrel and we made a sticker to put on it with this site address on so that the person finding it could read the story of Jimmy. We asked them to post and let us know where the barrel was found. This is really neat- a 'Make Jimmy proud' moment for sure- this is shit that he would be doing for someone else had it been different.
Thanks for the thoughts Sherry- they mean a lot to me.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

Jimmy is on his way to Niagra Falls with Clare "Jeff's Mom". I hope to post a picture of the barrel that Jeff made - it took him a couple of weeks to complete- it looks awesome. I love that they are doing this to honor Jimmy. That is so huge!!

Friday, August 3, 2012

Sleep just does not come most nights. I feel like a walking zombie. I lie awake at night thinking about Jimmy's last months, days, hours, minutes. The way he would stare at his skinny sickly legs- the look on his face- so sad... the struggle to get him out of bed- trying not to hurt him... he knew what was going on- kills me... but mostly- when he drew his last breath- I can never get that out of my mind. His family surrounded him- me on one side and Krista on the other- rubbing his arms and head and holding his hand. Shelley was at the bottom of the bed- spouses and BF there as well. Dad was sitting vigil as well. How can this all be true?! How can someone like Jimmy be gone from such a horrible thing?! Why the hell can't it be the scums of the Earth, and not the good people?!