Friday, July 4, 2014

July 4th

Jimmy always loved this day- he was always going to different states to purchase some kick ass fireworks to share with his family. The bigger the better he always thought. He got some pretty GREAT stuff!!
 Jimmy, we all miss you so tremendously - it hurts very much... I can't really explain how I feel most times.... I am in a daze, a crazy vortex of untruthfulness, somewhere a parent never wanted to be. I know that you are all around, but dammit, I get very selfish and just want to see you, talk to you, hear your smart ass comments one more time. I sometimes find myself praying for the day that I will see you again to come soon; I know that a parent and grandparent that has others to love and hold should not be thinking this way- but it can't be helped sometimes. I do apologize for the thoughts to the rest of my family.
We love you James- Dad misses you very much too. We are leaning on one another - I know you see this and it helps. Damion talks about you a lot. Zen does too--- we  keep you alive in our every day discussions  so that they will be able to know you! <3
So many words left to say---- can't wait to see you again....

Grey Fox,
I do remember  - - - and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your generosity with the donation.
Thank you for your kind words of Jimmy... He sure was ONE OF A KIND and at such a young age to have touched so many, makes me fill with pride. I know that he fills a bigger purpose now- but that doesn't mean that it still doesn't suck... right?
He will NEVER be forgotten and that has been proven by soooo many people and their loving words for my son.
Thank you again for keeping Uncle J-Bird alive in your thoughts!!
Marie ~ Mother of one of the best beings ever!!