Saturday, February 9, 2013

With every family gathering there is the pain and anguish of the loss of a very important part of us. We know that he is around us, but that just isn't enough. The hole that his passing has caused is such a great hole, one that is similar to a black hole- no one really knows the depth. There isn't  morning, noon or night that goes by that I do not think of Jimmy. I struggle each morning- lying in bed awake and thinking of everything that has been - everything that will be, and wonder if I really want to get out of bed at all!
If only he would be here- it would be the way it should've been ... the way it would've been...

Thursday, February 7, 2013

This morning, as MANY other mornings, when I awoke I heard the faint sound of a TV. It is always the same sound- a news/sports broadcaster. The voice is so strong, but so faint that it is hardly heard. I got out of bed and looked around the house to see if Patrick was watching something or maybe left something on, just as I normally do when I hear it. Again this morning nothing was on. I hear it in my bedroom- when I start walking the house I no longer hear it. It's like someone watching TV that doesn't want to awaken anyone in the house. Maybe Jimmy is still in his bedroom right below mine and wants to keep up with the sports action. :) Maybe he will let us know who is going to win it all next year - we could have the inside scoop! Much love James!!!